In the course of sorting out my personal and work files from my laptop, I found these pics that made me go awww...
December 29, 2007. Ate and baby Armaan's first night in Manila. Astoria Suites
November 29 2007. Last dinner date with Chev before he left for the States. Vivere
Armaan doing ducky lips. Just. Like. Me. (I'm so proud)
I'm starting a series about stuff I found in my archives/ files since I'll be doing plenty of cleaning and organizing during the new few weeks.
This one is about the CREEPY stuff. NONE of the pics below have been altered at all. Girl Scout Promise.
Creepy Photo # 1
Pic of me and Chev at M Cafe in Greenbelt. This was when we had drinks with Aimee, Bry, Vina and Dino. We were using night mode but someone's hand was a little shaky, hence this blurry shot. Check out the right corner. If you look closely, you'll see something blue that looks like a face. Gives me the creeps.
Creepy Photo # 2
Pic of me, probably at my thinnest. I don't like it. My eyes look bigger and my lips more Jack-Nicholsonish. My head looks bigger than my body. I like my bulgy cheeks better. This pic gives me the creeps too. Plump is beautiful :P
Creepy Photo # 3
Ok this isn't creepy. It's just plain disgusting. Dirty feet from walking around Vegas. And those chipped nail polish! Horror of horrors!
I can't find anything better to post here since I haven't gone through all my files just yet. I'll improve this post tomorrow. I'm kinda sleepy. It's 2 am. Gasp.
I'm outtie.
I like making playlists in my Ipod. Usually when I'm trying to fall asleep. So far I have "Rollin' with Mah Homies" hiphop songs, "Slowflow" chillout songs, "Motorcycle Drive-by" road trip playlist (with rise and fall uptempo songs, starts with U2's Beautiful Day and ends with Daniel Powter's You've Had A Bad Day), "Rock Steady Rock" you-guessed-it, my rock playlist. I even have a playlist entitled "Funeral No-no's" (what not to play during a funeral) which I deleted because it was lousy.
Now I have this "Missing Chevy" playlist, composed of songs I dedicate to my long-distance bee Chev. I listen to it when I miss him or when I want to torture myself when I'm sad from missing him too much. I wanted to upload all the songs but it's taking forever. So I'm just listing it down:
1. I Miss You by Blink 182
2. Wish You Were Here by Incubus
3. Look After You by The Fray
4.Counting Down the Days by Natalie Imbruglia
5. All I Need is You by The Click Five
6. Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
7. Ain't No Sunshine by Lighthouse Family
8. I'm Still Here by Vertical Horizon
10. Clocks by Coldplay
11. Half-Life by Duncan Sheik
12. Dare You to Move by Switchfoot
13. Feeling a Moment by Feeder
14. In My Place by Coldplay
15. When I'm Thinking About You by The Sundays
16. Things Will Go My Way by The Calling
17. I Miss You by Incubus
18. Your Guardian Angel by red Jumpsuit Apparatus
19. Stolen by Dashboard Confessional
20. The Blues by Switchfoot
21. Dear Diary by Travis
22. Sleeps with Butterflies by Tori Amos
23. Here with me by Dido
and the ultimate gut wrenching, tear-jerker song....
The Distance by Evan and Jaron
9 working days to go and I’ll be free as a bird. Now that the day is fast approaching I can’t help but feel anxious. Butterflies in my stomach anxious (flip, flop, flip, flop). I’ll be unemployed!! For the first time in 6 years I won’t have a new job to look forward to and dread at the same time. Mixed emotions. But mostly excitement. I’ll be seeing my bee after 2 months of being apart!! Yay!
I’m trying to plan what to do during the days I will spend waiting for my clearance and moolah. The days before I fly off to the States and so far, here’s what I’ve got.
1. Wake up late…
2. Eat long brunches while watching The Daily 10, The Insider, Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy
3. Clean out my closet.
4. Have a garage sale. Sell old clothes, bags, shoes and accessories. Ok give half of what I find to cousins as “pamana.”…if they’ll take it, that is.
5. Go to the spa for a full body scrub, facial, the works!
6. 3 words: Hip. Hop. Abs.
7. Finish my Gossip Girl Season 1 DVD
8. Finish fixing my wedding clear book / organizer
9. Bake. Try out the recipes I’ve marked on my new cookbook. Now that I’ve got a new hand mixer. Hurray!!
10. Search online for cheap rates and cheap things to do in the
11. Hang out with friends before I leave (hopefully they’ll treat me because I’m saving all my money…if they can’t treat me, we’ll just YM na lang siguro haha:P)
12. Use the beauty products I have unconsciously accumulated over the past few months a.k.a. magpaganda. Pa. Lalo.
13. Organize, organize, organize.
14. Brush up on my French. Kidding. Eat like the French.
15. Read the stack of books I bought but never got the chance to read
16. Return stuff I borrowed that are still with me.
17. Go out-of-town with parents and sister
18. Magwalis-walis ng bakuran hahaha. Magplano ng kasal-kasalan with Diche Kytes and my wedding dream team.
19. Learn how to cook everyday dishes from Mommy
20. Shop for pasalubong for Chev and baon. The instant pansit cantons and nido soups, chocnuts and hello pandas.
Went to Ayala mall area last Saturday to go grocery shopping with mommy and do a little Christmas shopping…or should I say start with my Christmas shopping since I haven’t gotten anyone anything yet. While I was driving along the longest parking lot that is EDSA, I realized some things about Christmas. Then I realized that in 1997, I wrote a similar entry in my High School journal - a journal we were all forced to fill up with our pensive teenage reflections for English class. And 10 years later, here I am thinking the same thoughts again. Either Christmas in
1. Christmas time in
2. It also means = “Time to Exploit the Shoppers” season for taxi drivers as they shift to “Drive Like An Ass” gear while slinking their way around like the vile conniving snakes that they are.
3. I also realized, while staring at the back of a REVO for a full 20 minutes that REVO is actually OVER spelled backwards while
4. I also realized that my mom is still a backseat driver. And she still gets mad when I try to make like a taxi driver and “drive like an ass.”
5. And that sometimes even if you dress up curse words as Crap! Sheet! Fuuuudge! Puch! and wish those drivers would die or crap their pants or die with crap in their pants, your mom will still shush you.
6. When I got to the parking lot, just like in my 1997 journal, people were fighting over parking spaces. There was this guy who was literally screaming his lungs off while cursing this lady who took his spot. And another couple fighting with a teenager, you guessed it, over a parking spot. Which made me sigh. How ironic. Christmas is the time to give and share and the time to be nice and not naughty. But cases like this usually happen only around Christmas time.
7. When I entered the mall I saw what felt like a gazillion kids buying toys and clothes. Christmas is indeed for children. Naughty or nice. And their parents will do everything, to make their children’s Christmas a happy one – fight over parking space, over the last toy in stock, over who goes first at the line at the cashier. Which is good because it’s the only time during the year when parents show their little gremlins how much they care.
8. I also realized that I have 6 godchildren and I still have no gifts for them.
9. Which sent me to a panicked frenzy. So I made a list of gifts to buy and rushed around buying the nicest presents I could find (that fit my budget). So I realized how year after year, I resolve to shop early but I still end up rushing like there was only one week til Christmas. And yes it’s true.
10. Some people (the really dorky ones) who shop one month before Christmas end up floating around the mall like butterflies with all the time in the world. Which totally pissed me off. I actually had a little spat with one of them who looked like she was on dope, staring off into space and holding up the line like her world was in slow mo.
11. That NOT all SM ladies ask you if you have an SM Advantage card. Hah! I finally found one who totally forgot to ask me.
12. That when I badly need to shop, I have trouble finding good stuff to buy but when I window shop I find things that I totally drool over but can’t buy.
13. That some salesladies are just totally blah. They don’t know what the hell they’re selling or just don’t understand what you’re looking for. And some of them are just so inaudible you just want to tell them to get out of the sales industry if they can’t speak up.
14. That I hear Jose Mari Chan during Christmas every single year whenever I see girls and boys selling lanterns on the street…
15. That the kids who sing carols at you doorstep usually sing the same medley you know the one that starts with “Sa May Bahay…” followed by “We Wish You a Merry Christmas” and “Thank you..thank you, ang babait ninyo thank you.”
16. That during Christmas I’m usually grumpy. Like the Grinch. Or the grumpy dwarf and the Grumpy Bear that doesn’t care. Or Ebenezer Scrooge. I’m like the Nightmare Before Christmas.
But don’t get me wrong, I love Christmas. It’s my favorite time of the year. And I will rejoice and celebrate the birthday of Jesus. But the rejoicing will not be as jolly or as merry. Not this year. With Chev on the other side of the world, I just don’t feel the spirit of Christmas. I can’t take the distance and I can’t take all this holiday cheer.
It was tough when he left yesterday for
It was tough helping him pack his things. Trying to fit in 2 years worth of clothing and accessories into one giant luggage and wanting to fill it with little things that will remind him of you …knowing that you won’t be able to see each other whenever you want to.
It was tough having lunch with him, talking and laughing and acting like it’s just another normal lunch…knowing it will be a while before you eat together again.
It was tough driving to the airport and asking him to drive faster so he can make it in time…knowing that getting to the airport is the last thing you want to happen.
It was tough talking to his parents at the waiting area when all you want is to spend time with him alone….knowing he’ll be gone in a just a few precious minutes.
It was tough giving him a quick kiss goodbye…knowing that you want nothing but to hug him tight and never let him go.
It was tough wishing him a good trip...knowing that all you want to say is "please don't go...not without me"
It was tough making small talk with his parents before leaving…knowing all you want to do is run to your car so you can break down and cry.
It was tough driving home with all the tears in your eyes...knowing it will take a while before they stop falling.
It was tough talking to him on the phone before he finally boarded the plane…knowing there was nothing any of you could say to make each other feel better.
It was tough saying goodbye.
But it’s tougher waking up and trying to get back into your routine knowing that it will never be the same...…that he won’t be a call away…that he won’t be there at the end of the day
It feels tougher than breaking up with someone because then you do everything to forget...but now you hold on to everything you can remember. And even if the memories make you smile, they also make you cry. Because you know from now on, life will never be the same again. And it will be a while before you can make it right.
This is probably the longest vacation weekend of the year. And no I didn’t do anything special. Didn’t go out of the country, didn’t go out of town, didn’t even go out of Makati. Hahaha. I call it the mother of all lethargic weekends (so far). Here’s how it went.
October 29.
Election day. Nope didn’t vote. I’m not registered in Makati. Didn’t want to vote in BF since I don’t know the people running for office there and what do I care, I don’t live there anymore. Stayed home and played PSP. Then we put up the Christmas tree and then Chev dropped by and we watched That 70’s Show on DVD.
October 30.
Went to work. I was so on holiday mode already but it’s end of the month and it’s the most hectic time so I worked my buns off. Speaking of buns, Bun and I had dinner at Cibo. Haven’t seen her since August. Catch up catch up on each other's lives.
October 31.
Work, work, work. Then Chev and I watched 30 Days of Night on Hallow’s Eve. Eep. Wanted to watch Fright Fest in g4 but you know...stigma, stigma. Slept at around 4AM because I played PSP again. I finished the game The Con already. Hooray.
November 1.
Went to the supermarket to buy food. Junk food. Sugar free soda. Snacks. Baking stuff (I want to try out some sugar free cookies to sell for Christmas...for my charity). Then Chev dropped by the house and we had a Matrix marathon. He also brought a lot of Mafia movies for my dad. We had a street food fest. I cooked squid balls and kikiam. And we played Scrabble with the Christmas tree all lit up.
November 2.
We went to Manila Memorial Park. My bad. I did leave Makati pala. Spent my day there hanging out with relatives, both dead and alive. Played Scrabble with my Mom and Titas like we always do. Then went home. And slept like a log. And woke up at around 10PM and played PSP until 3. This time I was playing Thrillville...where you build nice little theme parks.
November 3.
Chev and I went to the mall and bought DVDs. I got Knocked Up (no, I didn’t actually get knocked up. I got the movie) and Final Destination 3 which i haven’t seen yet. Chev got his Sopranos DVD changed since the last episode doesn’t work. We bought ice cream and pigged out in front of the TV. I watched Knocked Up while Chev played PSP . Then he fell asleep on the couch. He only saw Katherine Heigl’s character getting a pregnancy test then when he woke up, she was already giving birth. When he left I played more Thrillville...I was already on my 3rd theme park.
November 4.
Today. I spent my day playing PSP. I finished Thrillville already. Now there’s nothing else to do. So I’m just posting stuff on Multiply. Tomorrow it’s back to reality. Need to wake up early. That would be soooo difficult.
I was so unproductive the past 4 days. And so anti-social. But it’s only rare that I get the chance to do these things. So there.
Can’t wait for Christmas break. I feel all giddy just thinking about it.
