Should I Stay or Should I Go Now?

Dave Matthews. Live. In New Jersey. I'll be there around that time. But the plane ticket is so darn expensive. I promised myself I wouldn't splurge so much on this trip and take time to just relax and play with nephews. But Dave Matthews?! Dave Matthews?!! Singing Crash Into Me, Jimi Thing, Satellite, Ants Marching and my favorite favorite song The Space Between? Thta's a once in a lifetime opportunity. And right now, it's dangling right in front of my face. Literally. Just like this ticket (thanks Bun for tempting me).

Maybe I should write Oprah. Or Ellen. Or Tyra.

I dunno. Any rich dollar-earning friends willing to sponsor my $400 plane ticket to New Jersey? I'll be your driver when you're here in Manila. How about peso-earning friends? I'll buy you souvenirs :)

Call Me Tita Maya

Finally!!! I am now an Aunt. A real Aunt!! Not just to my cousins' kids but to my very own sister's baby. Baby Armaan was born last June 20 at 9:25pm in Los Angeles, California. 2 days after his initial due date.I panicked when I learned that my new nephew was delivered via C-section because he had a big head. I thought there was something wrong cause if you've seen my sister you would know that she should be very capable of delivering her baby normally (with her child-bearing hips and all) hehehe But everything was normal and he is very healthy. The doctors just had to get him out of there before he grew any more hair haha. Check out some of his pics. They say he got my ducky lips.

"hullo world!!"

"just chillin' with my mommy"

"sleeping time, sleeping time na naman"

I'm so happy for my sister and brother-in-law and my parents who are now grandparents. This month has brought us so many good news despite all my problems with work I can't wait to see my new nephew. Even if he'll just lie there in his crib and look at the light and look at his pretty aunt and pee in his diapers and drink his milk and sleep ... I'll sing him songs and make him coo and smile. Cause that's what lil babies do. Coo and smile and sleep and poop and pee. Then I'll do all the tiring activities with Josh whom I miss and love and adore so much too. Can't wait for the time the three of us can go to the mall and ride go-carts and eat ice cream. I'll probably be thirty then and it will be a little off but who cares?! I will always be a kid at heart and I will never get tired of playing with our kids. I can't wait to have my own kid as well but I'm scared of the whole pregnancy and childbirth and the delicate still-kinda-pink-infant stage of the baby... Miss you Ate. Can't wait to see your new bundle of joy. Cheers!!!

with the brand new mama

A Poem About Men

i haven't posted in quite a while. no time to write. i have a bunch of unfinished works. not inspired to finish them either. but i received this in my inbox and i knew i just had to post it. i do not agree with everything this poem says but i think you'd know which ones i strongly agree with. for the ladies and the men. just some insights on how to play the game of love :)

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs. - some men are bitches hehe
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.