It was tough when he left yesterday for
It was tough helping him pack his things. Trying to fit in 2 years worth of clothing and accessories into one giant luggage and wanting to fill it with little things that will remind him of you …knowing that you won’t be able to see each other whenever you want to.
It was tough having lunch with him, talking and laughing and acting like it’s just another normal lunch…knowing it will be a while before you eat together again.
It was tough driving to the airport and asking him to drive faster so he can make it in time…knowing that getting to the airport is the last thing you want to happen.
It was tough talking to his parents at the waiting area when all you want is to spend time with him alone….knowing he’ll be gone in a just a few precious minutes.
It was tough giving him a quick kiss goodbye…knowing that you want nothing but to hug him tight and never let him go.
It was tough wishing him a good trip...knowing that all you want to say is "please don't go...not without me"
It was tough making small talk with his parents before leaving…knowing all you want to do is run to your car so you can break down and cry.
It was tough driving home with all the tears in your eyes...knowing it will take a while before they stop falling.
It was tough talking to him on the phone before he finally boarded the plane…knowing there was nothing any of you could say to make each other feel better.
It was tough saying goodbye.
But it’s tougher waking up and trying to get back into your routine knowing that it will never be the same...…that he won’t be a call away…that he won’t be there at the end of the day
It feels tougher than breaking up with someone because then you do everything to forget...but now you hold on to everything you can remember. And even if the memories make you smile, they also make you cry. Because you know from now on, life will never be the same again. And it will be a while before you can make it right.
I've never missed anyone so much in my life. And it's only our first day apart. Sigh.
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